My Mental State.

So after much careful consideration I've come to the realization that i suffer from more than one mental disease. Maybe even more, i don't know. I've been labeled with having major depression once and having Borderline Personality Disorder twice. I think the symptoms of depression can be associated with the symptoms of BPD. But ever since i started taking my medication, i still don't feel right. I think i may also have inattentive ADHD. I daydream a lot, am disorganized, procrastinate a lot, and am always inpatient. Along with many other things that make me feel I may suffer from it. I will be going to my therapist next week for the first time and I’ll ask her. Hopefully I’ll see a psychiatrist soon because I need new meds, I’m tired of feeling down all the time, with no energy. antidepressants don’t work on me anymore. I think I need something else. I’ve tried most of them. But I’ll just try and be patient for now till I see the doctor. I’ve had a dream where I was in a hospital room and a psychiatrist came in and tried talking to me. My leg was broken, I don’t know why, but I just started crying to her explaining that I felt that my mental state was deteriorating. I don’t know what I should take away from that dream, but I’ll be sure to tell my therapist. Oh and i've stopped taking my methadone, i just felt like i didn't want to be addicted to something else. so i didn't have any problems coming off of it after only 3 weeks on it.