The loneliness of a doomed heart.

When in a relationship, how do you let go? how do you know you should let go? even if everyone says yes, but your heart and mind says no. I wish i could hold him once again and apologize. For all the things wrong i've ever done to him. but now i see it's what drove us apart. but he was broken also. how do two broken people become a complete whole? sometimes i just choose not to accept certain things because i know how i'll feel without them. but i'm not sure he really understood the depth of my love. i'd climb any mountains to reach him. and now he asks for distance. something i never thought i'd be able to, i must. i'm broken, i'm bruised. how can i continue trying to be a better person when i'm already starting the war losing? I don't want this anymore. i don't see a reason for anything else. nothing really clicks and makes sense anymore.